Category Archives: survival

Church, stop bullying me – the alchemy of pain

 

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Thank you peeps for all your love and support through this difficult grieving time. It is a roller-coaster ride, and this weekend presented an opportunity for the lowest of lows by the callous, insensitive & unloving actions of others. ☹️

I’ve made some new friends and lost some {I guess they were not friends to begin with} I’ve seen behaviour that shocks me, betrayal close to Judas and Brutus but I’m stating for the record: unlike Jesus and Ceaser getting killed. I still live to tell the tale, (though they try to push me to the depths of despair, lol🤣.)  And I will, as it is a good one!!!

Sisters, please watch your backs, not everyone who calls you sister has your back, indeed some covet what you have  and will go to any length to attain it. With their clever manipulation and what I now know to be “gas-lighting” tactics one proved my suspicions right, successfully in the most spectacular way possible!! There is a God of justice after all!! 🤣

Yes, it’s a paradox, that I feel victorious even in the face of loss!! The value of one revealing their character and true intention without a shadow of doubt is priceless, pure gold. A lesson for all to learn on how to guard against this in the future. It hurts me that some other friends got hurt because of their action but I guess ces’t lack vie!! You live and learn not to make certain mistakes again.

I have also witnessed and continued to see and enjoy the limitless abundance and supply of grace and blessings from Father God through the universe from the spirit realm. (Still asking where is Mother God?!🙄)

But:

I have had to learn the hard way to;

Protect my table, cast not my pearls before swines, they will rend you!! I will reveal all in my new book, “Church, stop bullying me, the alchemy of suffering” by Lara Rose

 (© Lara Rose 14/06/18 unedited)

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It’s not that no one cares…

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It’s not that no one cares, it’s just no one knows what to do!!

It’s not that no one cares, from preacher to absent mothers to doting teachers and self help coaches.
It just that no one really knows what to do to fix the big mess the earth is in!! At the best some bury their heads in the sand or run away, to avoid the pain of reality. At the worse, some claim to have the solution with lofty ideals but unwittingly or sometimes deliberately prey on others. Selah

Both scenarios, and there are more, are only following the flow of nature as it stands today. An amoeba will move away from a region of unpleasant stimulus conversely, a lion will prey on another! C’est la vie!

It seems no amount of motivational training, or positive thinking can change the order of things. Do I sound like the preacher in the book of Ecclesiastis? When he says, “all is folly, just eat, drink and be merry” Aha!

Hence to the dismay of many, clambering at the base of the 3-4-5 triangle.
Scrimping & scratching, and even the guru knows, he or she doesn’t know, and feels like a fraud when eventually reaches out to the ones he seeks to help with a collection tray!

Anyway, what do I know!!!

© Lara Rose 9/1/17 (First draft unedited)

 

 


Don’t Expect An Apology!

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New mini ebook for Bank Holiday!!

So, rummaging through my old laptop last week, I found one of my unpublished mini books. So excited to find this!

So, whilst collating my songs and poems, I’ve decided to publish this as an ebook in the interim!! 😄

 

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Who doth not bleed red?!

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“Who doth not bleed red?” © Lara Rose 2016

A severed capillary,
As if by magic blood cells
Come together in harmony
And seal the wound breaking the spell,
Who is it, doth not bleed red? © Lara Rose 8/05/16


… we are healed!

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Forgiveness and pain

InstagramCapture_b84e341f-bc23-4b95-8d28-1198f102b355.jpgOn the subject of scars and forgiveness, and you’re still hurting because you haven’t really forgiven judgment branded about in church!!

When you have had a recent experience that has literally picked on your scar and caused new pain, I understand why Jesus said to forgive 70 x 7 times.

Christians sometimes act like if you get hurt and feel pain you haven’t  forgiven!!!
Wrong

Forgiveness does not automatically eliminate pain!!

You don’t believe me!

I’ll prove it

So Jesus was hanging from the cross:

Would you agree he was in pain?

Yes!?

So he said, forgive them for they know not what they are doing!!

Did he recover and immediately stop hurting after this?

No!!

In fact, he died!!!

Wow!! QED! Selah!

© Lara Rose 29/03/16


The Universal Purpose … is Love!

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Following on from yesterday, I’d like to propose our “UNIVERSAL PURPOSE” is LOVE! ❤ 🌈 💐 💕

I believe we ought to keep going even if we may not necessarily have a clear destination!

Why?

Just like we don’t stop breathing just because we’re having an “off” day or a day of quiet reflection likewise we keep on going or moving!!

It keeps momentum and as you keep going even if it’s for the sake of it, clarity comes!!

The “aha” moment!
Then we set sail, full throttle towards a specific defined direction to an ultimate goal or arrival point.

Then we realise that the seemingly purposeless or “wondering round the wilderness” phase builds character!!

So keep moving, keep going, keep reaching, keep breathing!!

Live. Love. Shine.
© Lara Rose 23/03/16


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