Happy New Year


Happy New Year!!


It’s day 14, said one!! Lol๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

Reflective Journal,

Students log 14012019 Monday

It is my pre PhD CoR day, finally got the laptop working at the help desk. I’m a bit shivery still sitting on the Maroon comfy sofas of the library. I’ll acclimatise soon or move!!

I was just reflecting on one of my essay drafts from my MA Art & DESIGN, as shown in the picture above. My opening line was quite surreal, “I am the reincarnation of Hatshepsut….”


As if by coincidence a 2nd year undergraduate fashion marketing student Adam Dutton is psycho analysing my artistry using Freudian concepts of Ego, Superego, Id, etc. I’m intrigued to find out what Dutton concludes in his essay.

But, I daresay revisiting this bit of text is somewhat arming me for the journey ahead.

I claim I want to find the best vehicle to communicate subjects, including taboo subjects like sexual abuse and recovery from it.

Other cultural discourses include allowing the Yoruba voice within to manifest freely within a contemporary and cosmopolitan aesthetic.



How would Hatshepsut do this if she were alive today? What monuments will she build. What about her need to cross dress? Transgenesis is nothing new be it in race or culture, gender, etc.

On that note, I best get back to completing the power point presentation!!!

Have a lovely evening or day if just waking overseas!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜


Xmas day thought!!


Oh wow!!! Penny drops!!! Lol!!! Accepting the right for parents, family and people to reject me, wow!!!

That is the most freeing revelation ever!! You know, its not something wrong with you!!! ๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜„

… I don’t know what is wrong with me so I don’t know how to fix me….

Revise that poem to:

I know there is nothing wrong with me, There is nothing to fix I am perfect in all my being at different stages of development.

That you see is the way of life!

A baby crawls, walks, falls, walks, falls, crawls, walks, runs, falls.

There is nothing wrong with the child that does not come out of the womb running!! Lol!!

Einstein said, “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.โ€

ยฉ Lara Rose 2018 Xmas Day๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ 14:21

Response to fb post about accepting the right for parents to reject… (Fb page-overcoming sexual abuse)





Stabbing in the back like poking the flame

why are we here

Your stabbing me in the back,
Your poking me in the heart,
Is like a blacksmith forge stoking and poking the fire, glowing embers, heating up the coal.

How many more time, need I learn this lesson.
How many more times, will I feel this pain of poking and stoking?
To cause me to burn and shine even brighter still?
Sufficient am I not with tender flame oh universe? Doth thou serveth me my deepest request from the womb?

Still unbeknownst to me, from under me and even in plain sight she cometh to steal and hustle!

Oh crafty females of the species, teach me thy beguiling ways, oh that I too can hustle and bustle in the ways of this fallen broken world?!

Naive I no longer be, I see!
With every poking,
I shine brighter still.

Buyer beware!
Offences come, it is written woe to whom through thence they cometh.

Your stabbing me in the back,
Your poking me in the heart,
Is like a blacksmith forge stoking and poking the fire, glowing embers, heating up the coal.

ยฉ Lara Rose 07/08/18

Church, stop bullying me: But I care! really, do you?!


When a lot of people say they care, what they really means is, I don’t really care but I don’t want to look bad or feel guilty about being uncaring so they use reverse guilt tactics by saying things like, “if we didn’t care, we wouldn’t be… โ€œ

Truth is if you are showing love or care to someone you wouldn’t need to keep reassuring the person that you are. If someone questions how you care take that feedback to mean what it means, you are not being caring. (if you genuinely care, you will summon the higher powers to teach you or help you to care for said individuals)

It’s parabolic (oh, I don’t know, can’t think of a better adjective now I’ll check the dictionary in a bit or thesaurus even.)

…it’s parabolic, ironic maybe that you either care or you do not care. No in between, you can give an illusion of care but if it isn’t real caring it will actually flag up by the result it breeds.
Care, love, persistent love and care, or selfless love and care, real genuine care only yields the fruits of care and love. Anything else is not care. What is planted is what is reaped.
Yes, I’m bluntly saying if you plant love and care into someone’s life you will reap the reward of that care without having to constantly nag them with empty words.

We as a human race need to learn how to care again, hopefully this could be the empathetic generation that truly cares again. Enough lives have been lost under this delusion of care and the somewhat complexities in an independent self making society. And on the other end of the spectrum Churches unwittingly reward bad behaviour of unempathetic peeps via the misguided and missappropriated lens of “forgiveness”.ย  Coupled with callous references to just read your bible and pray, or you’re an unbeliever and all other causal comments. (there’s a scripture that challenges said hypocrisy}

I mean really what did you do to show you care, what were the actions? Do ask yourself that question honestly!!

ยฉ 29/06/18 Lara Rose unedited

Church, stop bullying me – the alchemy of pain



Thank you peeps for all your love and support through this difficult grieving time. It is a roller-coaster ride, and this weekend presented an opportunity for the lowest of lows by the callous, insensitive & unloving actions of others. โ˜น๏ธ

I’ve made some new friends and lost some {I guess they were not friends to begin with} I’ve seen behaviour that shocks me, betrayal close to Judas and Brutus but I’m stating for the record: unlike Jesus and Ceaser getting killed. I still live to tell the tale, (though they try to push me to the depths of despair, lol๐Ÿคฃ.)ย  And I will, as it is a good one!!!

Sisters, please watch your backs, not everyone who calls you sister has your back, indeed some covet what you haveย  and will go to any length to attain it. With their clever manipulation and what I now know to be “gas-lighting” tactics one proved my suspicions right, successfully in the most spectacular way possible!! There is a God of justice after all!! ๐Ÿคฃ

Yes, it’s a paradox, that I feel victorious even in the face of loss!! The value of one revealing their character and true intention without a shadow of doubt is priceless, pure gold. A lesson for all to learn on how to guard against this in the future. It hurts me that some other friends got hurt because of their action but I guess ces’t lack vie!! You live and learn not to make certain mistakes again.

I have also witnessed and continued to see and enjoy the limitless abundance and supply of grace and blessings from Father God through the universe from the spirit realm. (Still asking where is Mother God?!๐Ÿ™„)


I have had to learn the hard way to;

Protect my table, cast not my pearls before swines, they will rend you!! I will reveal all in my new book, “Church, stop bullying me, the alchemy of suffering” by Lara Rose

ย (ยฉ Lara Rose 14/06/18 unedited)

Walked out of Art Class!!


I walked out of a chemistry class once, but I never in a million years thought that I would walk out of an art class!๐Ÿ˜ถ
Apparently I have “regressed” in my art practice, insulted my lecturer (sorry you feel insulted) and most have taken something. Yes, a coffee and a mocha!!
Now, I’m done with people trying to silence me on the issue of the slave trade!! I don’t care anymore if it makes people feel uncomfortable. I’m going to have to continue to be the first domino piece and speak out my authentic truth.



My “make believe” proposal to create a giant face as a monument viewable from space whether people like it or not is my make believe proposal as per module brief for the 20 credit MAAD3 unit of the MA course. It now appears by the time I finish this Facebook post I will unwittingly have completed the 200 word written element of the module.โ˜บ๏ธ

Yes, it’s simple, benign, done, before, whatever adjective of displeasure applicable but this is my proposal for this module not for my final piece!
In some sense, my walking out of class has allowed me the space to simply write this, for that I am thankful.

If I fail this module because I walked out of class as the environment had become distressing for me,ย  cest la view.

So, I got the idea, inspired by the simplicity of the Richard Long sculpture currently on show at the Leeds Art Gallery yesterday Wed 25/4 /18.

I liked the simple use of Geometry, a circle with wooden blocks embedded. I liked the idea of creating order from chaos. I saw the schematic on the wall and revelled in the simplicity of it and how one could create simple geometric pieces of art from possible found objects.

Again very controversial work, these types of sculpture defined as art!
Coupled with the feedback from the music improvisation workshop about less being more, I found my mind revisiting the schematics of slave boats.

KISS:Keep it simple stupid!

Sketching, drawing, soon it looked like an eye then a face, then I thought of all the “faceless” unidentified Africans taken into slavery, and wondered about a sculpture that when viewed from above would be recognisable as a face but when you zoom in at ground level you see the gruesome detail of the tightly packed bodies.



And this is how that ended, what started as a very simple idea, demolished at its planning stage! A metaphor perhaps for the state of the African today 26 April 2018!๐Ÿ˜ข

My Omnivore v Vegan Conclusion


My Omnivore v Vegan Conclusion

An open letter response!

And likewise please respect my opinion and understanding, and I reiterate that, we in the West are very privileged, such that we can choose all kinds of diets, fads, lifestyles and scarcely have to worry what our next meal will be! Indeed we have food shipped in from far and sometimes at the expense of human “animal” sacrifice.

Some people not so fortunate, just have to be thankful for whatever food they get, animal, insect, plant or matter (mud cakes, honey, milk, cheese, butter, etc).

I still don’t understand the cannibalism comparison comment your friend made and theย  further comment about the look on my face.
I feel it was insensitive and disrespectful to me (he knows nothing of what I’ve been through, starved on occasion by parents, abused, etc) and to the plight of indigenous peoples/orphans/ beggars/homeless/ nomads/migrants/refugees, etc, peeps fleeing war torn zones, barren lands where famine abounds and crops can’t grow, etc!!

To make it worse he claims to be creating a charity that fights for the fatherless?!!!?!?! WTF ๐Ÿ˜ (And I never swear!!! ๐Ÿ˜‚)

And thus I can’t associate with people (esp “christians”) who seemingly place non human animal life value above human life. (I’m sorry all your arguments don’t wash with me)

Where is your human compassion and empathy for theย  human animal gone?
I find it distressing to hear people disregard human lives in favour of saving a non human animal! (But in reality at the expense of other species of non-human animal eg earth worms, insects, rodents, and may I add micro organisms?)

In conclusion, call me naive but I always assumed a vegetarian/vegan was the same thing!
Now, I stand corrected, but,
I don’t understand why some vegans get so offended, defensive, aggressive, judgmental and condescending towards vegetarians and omnivores!?!

I’ve even had customers complain about the lack of vegan medicine equivalents?!! To which I suggested they feel free to organise a vegan manufacturing plant to create gelatin free capsule shells, non animal tested drugs, etc!! Pioneer some new technology, I dunno!! ๐Ÿ˜Š

So, it gets tiresome listening to some vegans complaining and moaning and constantly attacking! It’s very negative, not very constructive, and vegans just end up sounding like spoilt brats!
I can’t take vegans claims serious about animal welfare and social justice when nearly every comment theyย  make regarding carnivorous food is toxic, laced with a superiority complex and disrespectful to the choices/options of others!! Indeed, if the general ethos of vegans is about “cruelty-free” living for animals, why are you so cruel to human animals?! I’m befuddled, and I’m done with tip-toying around peeps who have no regard for my welfare!!! ๐Ÿ˜ž


Each to their own, if you have the grace, fortune & privilege to afford genetically, financially or resourcefully (grow own food), a “vegan” lifestyle, good!! I’m happy and pleased for you, more power to you! ๐Ÿ˜Š

Give thanks and have gratitude to the universe for affording you that blessing. Yes, feel free to share, teach, inspire! We never stop learning and increasing in knowledge!


I’m not going to get into any ugly debates about this with peeps, or with anyone who tries to bully, berate or force their dietary opinion on me!!

I’m only in the business of
respecting, lifting up and loving one another! ๐Ÿ˜Š
Live. Love. Shine.

Lara Rose 29/01/18

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