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Church, stop bullying me – the alchemy of pain



Thank you peeps for all your love and support through this difficult grieving time. It is a roller-coaster ride, and this weekend presented an opportunity for the lowest of lows by the callous, insensitive & unloving actions of others. ☹️

I’ve made some new friends and lost some {I guess they were not friends to begin with} I’ve seen behaviour that shocks me, betrayal close to Judas and Brutus but I’m stating for the record: unlike Jesus and Ceaser getting killed. I still live to tell the tale, (though they try to push me to the depths of despair, lol🤣.)  And I will, as it is a good one!!!

Sisters, please watch your backs, not everyone who calls you sister has your back, indeed some covet what you have  and will go to any length to attain it. With their clever manipulation and what I now know to be “gas-lighting” tactics one proved my suspicions right, successfully in the most spectacular way possible!! There is a God of justice after all!! 🤣

Yes, it’s a paradox, that I feel victorious even in the face of loss!! The value of one revealing their character and true intention without a shadow of doubt is priceless, pure gold. A lesson for all to learn on how to guard against this in the future. It hurts me that some other friends got hurt because of their action but I guess ces’t lack vie!! You live and learn not to make certain mistakes again.

I have also witnessed and continued to see and enjoy the limitless abundance and supply of grace and blessings from Father God through the universe from the spirit realm. (Still asking where is Mother God?!🙄)


I have had to learn the hard way to;

Protect my table, cast not my pearls before swines, they will rend you!! I will reveal all in my new book, “Church, stop bullying me, the alchemy of suffering” by Lara Rose

 (© Lara Rose 14/06/18 unedited)

I’m tired of the charade of “church”


Im tired of the charade that guises under the umbrella of “church” seemingly the last place you will find “love” these days, where your light, you fuel, with bellows you keep alight yet still the “church” constantly dim. You pray, you cry, you dance, you sing, no matter what you do, if you dare to be different and not conform, you get persecuted from the very ones who dine with you!! Alas, the usual response, the familiar response, skilfully used by the rod of abuse. Blame shifting, quote a scripture, blame the victim, justify your action. Cite an example from the assemblage of books. Judas, Brutus, betrayal, what do you expect, etc, etc
I’m tired of the charade that guises under the umbrella of “church” where love stands at the door and knocks!
© Lara Rose 25/11/16

… the apothecary.


Sunday City Clouds


L’Artiste:”Corridors of Leeds – Sunday City Clouds” © Lara Rose 2016…

…she walked along the patchy footpath, taking in the fresh smell of spring and of yellow daffodils. You could almost reach up and scoop a peace of fluffy cloud like candy floss at the spring fete…

© Lara Rose 2016

Self Potrait

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Like stars in the sky, you may not always see them but they are always there.
Likewise at night our nearest star, the sun is not gone but temporary not visible to us.
So our God who cloaks us in the whole universe never leaves us or forsakes us!!

© Lara Rose 2016

Forgiveness and pain

InstagramCapture_b84e341f-bc23-4b95-8d28-1198f102b355.jpgOn the subject of scars and forgiveness, and you’re still hurting because you haven’t really forgiven judgment branded about in church!!

When you have had a recent experience that has literally picked on your scar and caused new pain, I understand why Jesus said to forgive 70 x 7 times.

Christians sometimes act like if you get hurt and feel pain you haven’t  forgiven!!!

Forgiveness does not automatically eliminate pain!!

You don’t believe me!

I’ll prove it

So Jesus was hanging from the cross:

Would you agree he was in pain?


So he said, forgive them for they know not what they are doing!!

Did he recover and immediately stop hurting after this?


In fact, he died!!!

Wow!! QED! Selah!

© Lara Rose 29/03/16

Happy Easter Everyone!!!

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